Mimi and Papa with their five grandkids on Mimi's birthday
Mimi and Magdalena
Today I feel as a mom does when sending their kids off to college or watching them get married. There comes that point where you have to let go, and for every person and every situation the timing is different. After sitting with Magdalena over the past two weeks I have wondered if this is what we will continue to do. What I mean is that the question arises whether or not I will get over my fear of doing anything or put myself in a hole. We didn't know if we would bring her home, so we never discussed how we would do things if she should arrive here. And I don't want this fear doing anything for the sake of Magdalena, Noah, me or the rest of those who love our sweet girl. She will never be "normal", so I can't do what a normal parent would in certain situations, but our lives do not need to be sat in a house as though I am waiting for her to die. We MUST be super careful, and I think that I will continue to let hardly anyone hold her except for us. We don't know how much time we have with her, but noone knows this for anyone they love, and for this reason our lives must continue.
All of this to say...
Magdalena had her first babysitter today. Her Papa watched her without any parents around. I was completely nervous even though it was for such a short period of time while I ran an errand. In any situation my dad would have done a great job, but I couldn't help but to be scared. Papa knew the drill on what to do in case she had any apnea problems.
Also, today is Mimi's birthday!! She loved spending time with all of her grandkids together! (Look at pictures above.) Magdalena went to Mimi's house for the first time, and one of the few outings that Magdalena has been on.
A few incredible things have happened that I also want to share with you....Magdalena's birth certificate and social security card have arrived!! Yay!
And today she took an entire feeding by bottle at her 9:00 feeding!! This is HUGE for her because of how difficult it is for her to take a bottle. She takes the most by bottle at this feeding time, so we took it slow and she did it! Now, she is resting from the hard workout.
Lastly, Magdalena has officially gotten a double chin. With her clothes, socks, and hat on she weighs 4 pounds and 12 ounces!! Her preemie clothes are still too big, but they are fitting her much better!! It is good for her to put on weight, but we still have to be careful so that her heart can handle the gain.