I have written many times before on the struggle of dealing appropriately with those we love, whether friends or family, who have truly suffered, so I won't continue to spill, but I do think that it is should be a continual prayer for all of us to show love to those who are suffering. For those of us who are suffering, we need to offer grace to those who may not respond as we see appropriate. Both of these are a prayer for me because I need to offer more grace and I need to pray more about how I deal with those who are suffering, whether their suffering is like mine or if it is different.
"Perhaps the greatest comfort I find in seeing Jesus as a man of sorrows is the affirmation that tears do not reflect a lack of faith; indeed, they are a companion to authentic faith." - Nancy Guthrie
I have to be honest and say that I have not really considered Jesus' sufferings on this earth. It may have been brought to may attention before, but I have not reflected on it. Chapter 53 of Isaiah makes Jesus so much more of a person to me because he understands this void in my heart where I miss my Magdalena.
Nancy asks us to read Isaiah 53 and decide which of Jesus' sufferings can we relate to. I was drawn to verse 11 first.
Out of the anguish of his soul he shall see light and be satisfied; by his knowledge shall the righteous one, my servant, make many to be accounted righteous, and he shall bear their iniquities.
I knew that this didn't quite answer her question because this verse did not make me think of myself, but it made me think of Magdalena. I am so focused on my suffering of losing her that I forget how she suffered while she was here, and how being with Jesus now is such a great relief. Through her short life full of suffering, she pointed lives to Christ. There was no medical reason why she was on this earth for as long as she was except that God had a special purpose for her here.
I couldn't read verses 4 through 6 without singing the worship song that I have heard many times before, but visually seeing the words verse 5 was a reminder that can easily be forgotten amidst my pain.
...upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
and with his stripes we are healed.
Because of his pain and suffering we can have that peace that so many of us long for in the middle of our nightmares, tears, and daily struggles. Because of his suffering we are healed. I don't believe this means that we feel wonderful for each sunrise, but daily we feel peace in spite of our struggles and pain, and we know that God has something in store for us whether on this earth or in heaven.