Week 1 - Telling Yourself the Truth

I feel inadequate to be writing my thoughts down about God with all of you reading, but I feel led that all of us should do this together. There are too many of us clinging to our pain when God can free us of it. Please write down your thoughts, favorite verses, and whatever you feel led to share from each day or week that you read.

Sometimes I catch myself using the word “lucky” because I don’t believe in luck. I believe that God has ordained everything that has come to pass in my life. The world and all those in it are not flying out of control. He has his finger in everything. All bad things that happen have a larger purpose to them, and many of those things we may not see today or in our lifetime. But sometimes God does bless us with knowing. God ordained that this be the very first page that I read after a completely mind overtaking week. It was a horrible few days because not only did my heart ache for what I had lost but the regret that I felt for so many things that happened near the end of Magdalena’s life. It is easy for an outsider to see that those things were completely out of my hands, but for me my head was forgetting the sweet words that God has given us to lean upon. Now, that my mind has come back to reality I know the way were what was best for Magdalena, but I also realize that I have some ways to go before I let go of some of the regrets that I have.

Psalm 119 is a long chapter, especially when compared to the other chapters, but everyone is in a different place in there grief. Also, everyone deals with grief differently. God does not change who He is, but He is there for each person individually. He can meet every need and longing that may be out there. He can offer peace to us as our hearts are breaking and the world continues on without us. Here are some verses that stood out to me.

Psalm 119:28-32

28 My soul melts away for sorrow;
strengthen me according to your word!
29 Put false ways far from me
and graciously teach me your law!
30 I have chosen the way of faithfulness;
I set your rules before me.
31 I cling to your testimonies, O Lord;
let me not be put to shame!
32 I will run in the way of your commandments
when you enlarge my heart!

Psalm 119:81-84

81 My soul longs for your salvation;
I hope in your word.
82 My eyes long for your promise;
I ask, “When will you comfort me?”
83 For I have become like a wineskin in the smoke,
yet I have not forgotten your statutes.
84 How long must your servant endure?

Psalm 119:94

94 I am yours; save me,
for I have sought your precepts.

Psalm 119:143

143 Trouble and anguish have found me out,
but your commandments are my delight.

Psalm 119:143

156 Great is your mercy, O Lord;
give me life according to your rules.