Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Preparing for Christmas

There is no blessed way of living, than the life of faith upon a covenant-keeping God - to know that we have no care, for he cares for us; that we need have no fear, except to fear him; that we need have no troubles, because we have cast our burdens upon the Lord, and are conscious that he will sustain us.
Spurgeon, C. H.

This quote meant so much to me when I read it the other day. Although I really only write about the burden of losing a child, there are so many more that we all face. Every day if we would take the time to pray unceasingly we would enter into this world with no fear knowing that when Christ carried the cross he also carried the burdens we are dealing with. I say that this load is heavy, but God wants to take it from me if I will relinquish control over it, which leads me to realize how much I think that I want to be in control of my life. Power. I really don't want that kind of power though, even when the world makes me think that I do. Someone wrote to me yesterday sharing their life, and instantly I began to try to think of ways that I could help them. That didn't take long because I knew that their pain was so great that only God could ease it. I hate it that I instantly thought that there was anything good for me to do when really the first thing I should have done was pray.

There are many things to catch up on from the Thanksgiving holidays, but for now I just couldn't wait to share my Christmas stockings. Although unsaid, Noah and I knew that the holidays were going to be tough this year, and for this reason we entered into it full speed so that Walt could have a good first Christmas. The week of Thanksgiving Noah, Walt, and I did some fun family activities such as going to the movies, shopping, playing Scrabble, and putting up our Christmas decorations. I found a small tree at Target, which I am sure is supposed to be used on the outside of a house, but I thought it was perfect for us. Also, there I found these stocking hangers. One of them was an angel, which I knew would be perfect for Magdalena's stocking, and after looking around EVERYWHERE I found a stocking for Walt. Noah and I were forced to discuss getting Magdalena one that matched Walt's stocking. We were ok with hers being different, but when I saw this one it just fit her so well. I immediately began the think of how she is dancing right now not in hopes of being a Disney princess, but because she is a princess, daughter of God our King. And just look at that pink! For those reasons, we got her one too, but because it is hard to let go, I know that the one I found last year will always be close by in case I change my mind.


  1. After my first child died (she only lived for 30 minutes) I felt the same way. I still do. We even get a cake on her birthday to celebrate her life. My little girl took a picture of her on her all about me poster to school. I wasn't sure if it would come up that Shelby was in heaven but I was not about to tell Morgan no.
    I pray that you have a wonderful Christmas. Also, please pray for the Gray family. They live in GA and were in a bad car accident and it took the life of their sweet 2 year old daughter and the mom is in critical condition. Thank you!

  2. Brooks Koskovich11:06 AM

    I think their stockings are beautiful! I am so impressed by your faith and unfailing knowledge that our God has a perfect plan through all of the madness around us. You have been such an inspiration to me over the last few months. I know we only passed in the hall and had "small talk" but since Walt has gotten here and I have had the chance to get to know your sweet family through this blog, you have opened a door that I didn't even know was closed for me...unfailing faith. Thanks to you and your family for being able to show other people that our God is real, and loves us and puts His arms around us through EVERYTHING. God bless!

  3. Love the stockings! They're both just perfect. And the tree looks great on the hearth; it's a great fit.

  4. You are such a sweet mama. I love how you care so very, very much about the details.

    I totally identified with your "need to fix things" and have also grown to realize prayer is the first and most powerful "fix" there is! What a relief to really know we are not in control, that a just and merciful God is and our imperfect selves are under His grace.

    God bless your precious family this Christmas season and may you feel the Peace He came to give.

  5. What a great post....



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