Four years ago today, we didn't know that it would be Magdalena's last hours on earth. We knew that she was sick, and we were taking shifts staying awake with her. I went to bed early planning to wake up at midnight, and then, Noah would sleep. As I fell asleep weeping I prayed out to God for more time, and even as I prayed I knew that He was saying "I have not left nor forsaken you" (Hebrews 13:5). These are the last few pictures we took of Magdalena. Just days before she went to be with Jesus, she joined her cousins for movie night watching Horton Hears a Who (how appropriate might I add - "a person's a person no matter how small" - Dr. Seuss) at Loli's house. I remember that I was basically still in my p.j.s looking terrible so there are no pictures of me. But I love these pictures because they embody how much Caroline and Emma loved Magdalena. In one you see Emma patting Magdalena's booty gently, and Caroline was so proud that she go
Those blessings are sweetest that are won with prayers and won with thanks. -Thomas Goodwin Magdalena was so sweet last night and gave us a full nights sleep! I was surprised at the time when I woke up, and even then she wasn't crying. She was just a little restless like she was getting hungry, a problem that is easily fixable. Yesterday Noah and I had to go somewhere that we preferred that Magdalena not make the drive. I cannot tell you where because it is the time of year where there are many secrets that will be revealed in the future, so I will let you know after Christmas. My mom had been wanting to keep Magdalena at her house for some time, but I was just not ready to let go. But because of our errand, we decided to ask Mimi to babysit Magdalena during the day, and of course, she didn't even have to think about it. The entire night before I kept second guessing our decision. Not because my mom is incapable of caring for Magdalena, far from it, but that I just didn'