Magdalena Pulls Out Her Tube

I really try not to have any regrets with how I did things while we had Magdalena with us, and so many times I have internal arguments with myself. I know that I can't change anything now, but when I think about Magdalena, some little thoughts seem to creep their way in there. I pray that God will allow me to rest in that everything happened the way it was intended. I know that will be a continual battle. Back in December, I was set to have Magdalena's picture taken as we were doing each month, but the night before we were to do it, Magdalena pulled her tube out. Replacing the tube was always an ordeal. She hated it, and that slippery little tube just did not always go in immediately. This is why we took pictures the day we would replace the tube for the "one" time each month. It kept her from having to do it more than necessary. Well, once she pulled it out, I cancelled the picture session trying to limit the number of times we would replace the tube. Well, I hate that we didn't take those pictures. As you can see in the video during this time period she was really showing her personality more than she ever had. The morning of this video she never cried because she was hungry. She just played and played. Noah and I were really confused by this because she just had fun. The reason I regret this so much is because it seemed as though every time we would have Magdalena's picture taken, she had her eyes closed...those beautiful big blue eyes. I am so glad that we continued to flash our camera like crazy, and look at this camera. And here she is just happy to be hanging out. You can see that she was beginning to teethe because she was sucking on her gums. So, no regrets. We have so much to be thankful for that finding a regret with anything associated with Magdalena would make me spoiled.